what a loser

Generally I'm a very organized person. Occasionally my closet can get a bit messy with my clothes sitting in a pile on the bottom (sometimes I'm too lazy to hang them up), but for the most part I'm tidy and neat, with everything thing in its place and a place for everything.

I even have a little coat hanger thing stuck to my wall for me to hang up my keys as soon as I get into my room. I really like maintaining order in my life and have a strict daily routine.

Which is why I'm so shocked I lost my wallet. I remember exactly the last time I had it out. I was paying for the cab ride back to school and the driver acted like he wasn't going to take my subway card (you can pay for cabs with the same card as you use on the subway), so I got out my wallet to pay him in cash but then he grabbed the card from me and just used that as payment.

That's where my memory gets fuzzy.

Obviously I didn't put the wallet back in my purse, but what did I do with it? Did I set it on the seat of the cab? Did I drop it on the street as I left? Did I carry it with me to the dorms where it fell along the way?

I guess none of those questions really matter since the thing is gone. I've never lost a wallet before and it definitely SUCKS. Surprisingly, I didn't cry. I've turned into such a hard ass here in China. I just called my credit card companies and reported the cards lost and they're sending me new ones. I had maybe 120RMB in there, so that's not much of a loss. I'm going to miss my CA driver's license, mostly because the picture on it is so old and funny (I was 15 1/2 and had a pixie hair cut).

Friday was my birthday and I stayed out until 5 in the morning, came home slept for two hours and then went shopping all day with Romy and some other friends. I was pretty exhausted and also drunk/hungover the entire day, so if I was going to lose my wallet some time, it makes sense that it would have been last night when I was a total zombie.

Well, now I have a legitimate excuse to buy a cute new fake designer wallet. I guess that's the silver lining to all of this.